Jiving in a Southend car park...

Yeah you read that right. I was jiving in a Southend car park with my mate Peter....
....with my mum watching....
....and several drunk people....

This (as you are probably aware) is not a common occurance in my day-to-day life, firstly because I don't actually live in Southend, but also because I am in fact...painfully shy...(I am honestly)

HOWEVER! (pause for dramatic effect) I have a new lease of confidence, shame it's at 11:00pm when I can't do anything about it, but a new lease of confidence nonetheless! To explain why I was jiving at 10:30pm on a friday night in a car park instead of a nightclub, you must understand how I got there: I attend a dance group called "Ceroc" which specialise in jive dancing. I have been going for a year now, but the last 6 months have been a but on/off due to university. I met my friend Peter, who is now a close buddy of mine. We jived all the time at Ceroc, but because I don't go as often, I never get to dance with him anymore (sad face).

SOOOO now that I'm back in Essex I figured a good ol' fashioned meet up wouldn't go a-miss. So off to (any day but today) sunny Southend I went. To sum up the day: it was epic! We saw "The Hunger Games", I kicked his butt at Just Dance 2 about 3 times (which I heard from my buddies Katie and Sarah that I aparantly am very good at, thank you ladies) and had a general mess about. When it came to take me home, he walked me to my mother's car, where a tune was blaring....

....here comes the dancing!

After a jive to Cora Emerald, and a lovely appaulse from my mum and several nightclubbers on their way to a good night out, I headed on home. It was lovely to be appaulded on something I considered only to be a laugh. It may sound a bit stupid to say, but I've always considered myself to be quite an average person, nothing particularily special to the world, but seeing random strangers, plus my mum, clap me for something I wasn't even trying at, it made me feel proud that I could something worthy of an appaulse. I mean I do the drama performances, and they really do help with the whole confidence thing, but there is only so long you can feed off that once you've stopped.

So it may sound stupid, and if you see me please do feel free to slap me round the face, but I felt like more than an average person after dancing. Not only because I got some recognition for what I did, but because I did it outside in an open space in front of people, and I didn't crease up in embarassment like I normally do.

I think I may do more stuff like that, just maybe not so close to drunk people. As my character in "Joking Apart" says:

"They get a bit fighty on the vichey water"


H.x

Hide the Malteasers, she's at it again....

Well it's been a while!

I'm not going to lie when I say the last 2 weeks have been some of the most stressful but fun times of my life. Everytime I sit at my laptop and think 'It should write a blog post' i'm absolutely knackered so I either go to bed or stay up to ridiculous times of the morning and face-plant my laptop...

...you think i'm kidding? It hurts when your head slaps straight into your keyboard...

The reason for my time away from WKD, Chinese, Drama: A full ton of words? One word: Drama. We had our production of "Joking Apart." For those who don't know the play (so most of you then?) the play is set around 4 parties that happen over the course of many years at the same house, headed by Anthea (me) and her partner Richard. You meet the new neighbours Hugh (who proclaims his love to Anthea...awkward...) and Louise (who goes nuts!!). You then meet Brian (works for Richard, loves Anthea... again, awkward) and his many girlfriends Melody, Mandy and Mo (all played by the same person). We lastly meet Sven (Richard's business partner) and Olive (Sven's wife). Overall it was a good giggle. Here have a looksie :)

Don't we all look happy? Thank you to Naina for the lovely picture.

So yes, this is the reason I've been so delayed in a blog post. I do apologise. However, this is only a small part of my 2 weeks. I've had coursework, a social life (oddly enough) and many other bothers hitting me in the head. Everything has got better admittedly: I'm sleeping a lot better than before, my shorthand has improved and (in my opinion) i'm sailing through law. You'd think i'd be happy with this, but OH NO I am aiming higher!

I've applied for the committee for Drama Society. I figured it's had such an impact on my life I should try and help it make a bigger impact on others too. I also think I'm doing the wrong course at university. This is NEVER a good thing. I love doing Broadcast Journalism, but it's missing something. I don't know what it is, but something is lacking...maybe my enthusiasm at the moment, but that's besides the point. I've also had (what I can describe) as a complicted social life. I overthink everything! My own mother said to me only 5 days ago "you'll do better with a man in a relationship if you didn't talk as much"...

...thanks mum...

However she does have a point. I talk waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much when it comes to men. I just get so jittery y'know? If there's silence, my brain thinks something is wrong and decides "fill the air with pointless information...GO GO GO!!!" and I talk and talk and talk and talk and talk....you get my point. Also, I have the terrible nack of saying too much too soon. I honestly don't see the problem: I don't want to lead a guy on and if the only way of not leading them on in my eyes is to tell them something, then it's their own fault. However, not every man will agree with this so I tend to blow any chance of a relationship right out of the water!

I should probably just follow my mum's advice and shut up, but it never works, I just talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk and talk.....

Till next time

H.x

I've cracked open the chocolate, this should be interesting....

Well it's been a while hasn't it! For some reason I haven't had anything to write about.

Everything is finally getting back on track....oh wait! There's something to write about....

Well line learning is no longer an issue anymore I'm pretty much off script. One or two bits need a bit of work but line learning is no longer dominating my life. (phew!) I'm a lot calmer than I used to be. I used to stress out A LOT (people who know me can back me up on this) but recently i've had more "me time" where I can do what I want, when I want and hang out with who I want.

So basically, I feel awesome again!!! *does a small victory dance*

Now that I've got that out of my system, I can move on. Even though I've been having a lot of "up" days recently, it appears that the "down" days still like to make an appearance. For example, I've just had a great weekend, so my body has decided that to bring me back to planet earth it's going to make me feel like a barrel. 3-day weekend yes, but stomach cramps noooo! Also, I seem to be taking a lot more control of people's perspectives of me. That may sound weird but I shall explain. I used to be the butt of the joke, and sometimes I didn't mind if I was in the right sort of mood, but at times I was clearly not in the mood. However, now I take everything with a pinch of salt (my friends will all now say in unison "but we've been telling you that for ages!!" well I say to you I was listening, it just didn't make sense at the time)

It's not a very long blog post today I know, but when you feel like I do today, with the pain and the "I-told-you-so" moment directed at me possibly being fired in my direction soon, you get what you're given :)

Also, a mini shout-out to my friend Sarah, as she has been really helpful over the last couple of days, plus she has a very cool blog!

See ya!

H. x